You are one of Nigeria's problems; can we skip to the good part?

Did I miss y'all, or did you miss me at all? I am deeply sorry to those who look forward to reading this. Life lately has been messy and shit, fam.

Can anyone explain to me how I can really not get in contact with people who'd stress me because it's really draining. I am tired, really. That's that about that.

Can we talk about self-esteem and how I can be so insecure? 😂 I don't seem like it, too, ikr. I just knew something was wrong. I don't know if it's bullying, but many times, I have felt down when people call me shitty names, and it's part of what pushed me to caring for my skin like this. I think I am now obsessed and at any inconvenience w my face or body, I feel extremely sad because that's what makes me feel better about myself. I just wish I could have good skin without having to do anything. I am that lazy, but I try hard not to bring in my laziness in this because it has my self-esteem at stake.

I love compliments a lot, and I love to compliment people, too. I love to feel happy, and I feel happier when I make people happy. I think every other person should consider complimenting people when they admire something in them. Let's make the world a better place together. We need to start healing. Feranmi compliments me almost all the time in school. “Rumaysahhhhh, you smell nice. You look really nice today.” Love her for that. There are others who compliment me, too that I didn't mention and even random people on the street, 2 people told me I looked nice today even if they had another motive to that, I really don't care, what matters is that I was complimented.

I think I have mentioned how bad I am at texting people, but I am now improving, and some people are surprised at it. I will get better. Please text me if you want me to always check on you, we need to start spreading love and ask how people are doing.

Everybody is getting a share of the economy, and it seems to most people, the governments are the problem. Bleh, ask me again, but I don't see it tayt way. People are greedy, mischievous, and liars. Many of us have actually used this situation to extort using the government as an excuse when the problem is really us. And even if things are truly cost and it's from the government, I think it's for the betterment of us all and our generations to come but nobody wants their generations to enjoy what they laboured for without having to enjoy a dime from it, I guess.

Nobody is actually talking about the debts the past government owed. We just want to be comfortable without feeling that inconvenience that comes with success.

I want to skip to the good part also where everyone survived, but it's not possible because some of us will actually be washed away in this storm of economy we find ourselves. I pray with every difficulty, we find peace of mind in the end because with all these problems, we should still suffer in heaven. O ma lọ far gan ni.

Ire o. 😚

Writing is healing, I hope to have the energy to write everyday.