Cheers to better days & 2025.🥂

Hi. Leemao. It's funny, right? I am a joke. I read Roqee, Grace, and Medusa's newsletter, and it dawned on me. Well... let's do a wrap. I have tried many times to write but it didn't end here. One point I felt guilty because one way or the other, I tell Mustapha and I will do nothing and I feel bad. They are all drafts, and I don't think they are relevant anymore. I am still going to write about the people I want to write about, though but for now, let's do this.

Let's get into it. Let it be known that I lost a lot of people(to death and to life) and I will be glad if I can lose more, I have shitty people rn in my life and I can't anymore, you won't hear from me. I am not that good of a person to people, so it won't be a problem, more like an expected thing that is formal.

Please, where do people learn to be wicked because I want to.

The year started all bubly and good like a promising one, but trust me, it ain't ending well at all. But one thing I am so much grateful for is 'growth', I know better, learn better, and definitely look better, and for those who find that information okay. (I believe I have a crush out there because I definitely like more than 10 looking good souls, hehe)🤭🙈🙊

January: It was so good and sweet. I felt genuinely happy and good. I made some resolutions, I remember, and for those who knew me then and could remember what it was also but kashaamadupe. (Bi emi ba wa, ireti ṣi n bẹ)

February: I don't remember anything happening, and if anything happened, it was really not significant. It was just normal.

March & April: It was then I went for a competition. Fun and all. Met new people, too.

May, June & July: yoooooooooo....I was running mad here. 😂😂 I swear I am not even playing. Exams and school problems. The exam seemed like hell, more like it was hell. I was sick after for about a month. My Eid was spent nursing my health. I wanted to vomit my lungs, bruh. * I wan die, guy. * It was too crazy.

August, September & October: Crazy months. Omo. 😂😂 Chai. Wo, AlhamduliLah sha. (They want to take my life, but it's not time yet) I hate some people that are forcefully in my life mehn. I wish I could cut people off the way people cut me off, damn! Un-meet, Un-know, and Un-do the shit. It would be way easier that way. As much as I hate people, I am super grateful for the genuine ones in my life, and I won't take them for granted. It was amazing, too, I had coursemates who turned friends, too. I have been with Ife since way back, but Shina and Korede, I love these people. They caught my heart, fr. I had a mental break twice within these months, and the only people I could think of calling were these two. I was literally crying on the phone. These people laughed at me after consoling me. Crazy days, but guess what? Better now, I guess. Not related, but Ife is a crazy sassy boy, but he's one those ones I am grateful for. Learned from him without him knowing. Victor, too. My boy. One young smart boy that I am happy to know and inspire, like he said.

November: School, bleh, shit & hearbr4ek: My loves, Amidah and Feranmi. I am glad that I could be that talk partner with Feran. She's so good with that. We talk for hours without even realising and she be like "I agree with you, honestly, I didn't even think that way, you make me see things differently now" 😂 I swear, I am always happy when I have those sessions with her. I feel seen. I love talks, real-life talks, and every chance I get, I yap like the yapper that I am. Amidah, I don't know what to say but all she did was to be good to me with my bad character. I got served the third time, too. My girl cut me off cause, quoting her words, " I am not a good friend," and funniest thing? I know, but I don't want to accept that reality until I start cutting people off, too, and make it formal.

December: It was good until my department took it seriously that they want my life and body. It's well. Toyo texted me today, and the essence of the text is that she values me even though I am shitty. She said, and I quote, "You're getting this message because I do not know how else i might express how much you've made 2024 memorable for me, Despite your call issues, you've never let me down....." It was a long message, and I didn't know the right words to reply with, but I am just glad. I want to write a lot more but I can't. I had times I wanted to write to you all, but it didn't end well, I told Mustapha he could attest to that.

Wallahi, this year was crazy and I really had those doubts that I could pull through till now, and I am grateful. I really am. And for the people who value me, I am super grateful for you, and to those I value, I find you worthy.

I want to have plenty money, please. I want to take care of people who were there for me and the ones I value. I am the most inconsistent consistent person, but one way or the other, I am not just someone you know. I owe you lots. And if there's anyone who hasn't made peace with accepting who I am, please do like my ex-friend who did well by typing her break-up words in a well detailed way. (E shaanu mi, ẹ fi mi silẹ. 🤲)

Eshey o. Thanks for reading my shit and bearing with me. I am so happy for y'all 72 people here who will get this. Thank you so much. I feel seen and heard. Beehive sent me a wrap and the likkle things you all did, too.