Are you like the Frog too?

I love telling stories, I talk, I yap, and I think I think differently, might be good or bad, whatever it is in your books. I put things together even in a weird way. Whatever makes sense to me at a time makes sense. Though, you can easily convince me if you make sense to me, but it has to align, which is why I have to tell you that what I believe in today might change tomorrow. You know that, right?

I am writing this today on a Sunday, but I am definitely not publishing it today, I sent one out in the early hours of today, and I get to let you digest that.

First, I want to acknowledge that feedback and compliments make me feel seen and heard, and I just remember them many times. I think I am one of those people who has the craziest mood swings. This minute, I am all bubbly, and the next, I don't want you touching me. Not like I am crazy, though, I just have flashback from things and I question whatever I am feeling thinking something related might happen again or I just miss those moments and the thoughts of not getting to have them again takes it all away.

On occasion, I get texts about how someone loved a particular story and encouraged me to keep writing. It lit me up many times when I just know someone reads my thing. Bushrah did today. She texted, "One day I’ll catch you and your inconsistent newsletters

You people should write more at least I’ll feel like someone is writing to my mail", whatever this means, it meant so much to me, it was a compliment that I really appreciated and I think I needed. It did work.

Today's story is not all about all that but one of those thoughts that lingers in my ear at random moments. It sounds kind of dark, proudly sponsored by a movie I just completed titled "The Frog." The movie is basically about two hotel owners who were tormented by serial killers who stayed at their place.

"The Frog" however is a metaphorical word depicting a scenario where frogs are jumping around and stoned one of them, and the injured frog laments on why the stone hit him alone among the army of frogs. One of the serial killers, when asked by the victim, why he did that, he answered, saying the question he should be asking is "why was he around or passed by when he(the serial killer) was around that he should rather blame himself and not him for causing the trouble.

The main reason for this story is inspired by the actions of the second serial killer in the story. She was a lady, and I wouldn't agree less when they say, "Women are snakes." She twisted the whole thing and even brought more people into it, at least the first serial killer who was a man admitted and got jailed alone.

She killed her ex-husband's son, killed a police officer who got entangled in the whole story, tried to kill a man, his friend and daughter, and still had all it takes to play the victim justifying what she did. She felt like she deserved all the peace in the world without being questioned and should go scot-free after every of these actions.

It only got me thinking, and I think I can relate to that, but not in a serial killer way. Oh, please, I am not a psycho. 😂

I do things in my own way that angers people and when they get mad and ranged and they act it out, I blame them for not pitying me and they should have the thought that I have my reason for doing this thing but I can tell them. Again, I am sorry, it's not my fault, too.

For instance, I stole meat from the pot, it was the last one which everyone was supposed to share but I didn't want to cut out of it because it's another problem and I'd rather eat it whole. I stole the meat because I craved it and my peers eat more than one meat, I am just a child who doesn't understand the cruel way of life yet and expect my parent to provide for me just the way my peers parent provide for them. My parents, on the other hand, see me as an ingrate and greedy because I am supposed to adapt to the life situation that I find myself in, which makes us both victims. But I "stole" meat, which is a social vice that I should get punished for. Do you get that? I just gave a scenario, I didn't steal meat o. 😂

My one-time friend dropped me because I have bad characters. I blame her for not trying to find a reason for me for acting that way. She blames me for acting like a red flag and asked not to be my friend anymore. If people ask her what happened between us, she will mention all my bad actions, and I will be judged, yeah? but nobody cares to know why I did what I did. Two victims, but one will take the fall. Another scenario.

Note that I am not justifying any social vice, especially if it hurts another person, but I am just trying to point out what I just wrote. While some people are just pathetic losers who don't have a reason to do things and some give shitty reasons to commit these crimes, there are two angles to see an issue. I am not saying it's right, but I am just saying.... And treating people in a shitty way because you are having a mental break down is not a valid reason.

Yeah, I know, right. I should learn from this, too, I am trying. 😂 

Lastly, I wrote this the day I sent the last newsletter, I just felt like publishing today and I am too lazy to change anything.

I hope someone is out there genuinely grateful that they know me, at least. Mehn. E hard to find person wey no go traumatise or stress you. Lessons learnt, onto the next!😂

Thank you for reading, again. 🫠🙈